I wish you were here

Of course...

electricpencils:

They’re forecasting snow. Nice. Real nice.

All alone

electricpencils:

for the next couple of days here in the STL. At least I’m not broke. I should be able to entertain myself. There’s a couple of free Theodore shows. I could go to them. Or catch a movie. Or who knows.

Cards in MO

I will not be seeing the Cardinals in Missouri.

I miss Missouri

I was telling a gentleman that was sitting next to me at the Orpheum theater in Boston Saturday night about the first time that I had ever seen Ryan Adams live.

I was 15 and Whiskeytown was doing a show at the HighPoint theater in St.Louis. Being not of age I snuck in through the back door where all the trash was being dumped. I was almost caught by the bar tender. It was an amazing show.

Cardinals, say hello to Missouri for me.

It's been forever

I am feeling guilty for not posting on here.

My life has taken a major turn, some of it for the worse and some for the better. I think to myself, “how can that be?”

Well…. I have decided that I will never follow my heart again. If my gut is saying something is wrong, then it probably is.

I will never let somebody get the best of me ever again. Never see me cry, know how much I care for them, I will not wear my heart on my sleave.

I will not look for the best in people at all times. The first sign that they are rotten, I will be through with them.

I know that this harsh, but it is what I am going to have to do in life to be able to get over this broken heart.

No more crying, thinking, dreaming.

Just black and white.

Hello Tumblrs!

I feel like it has been so long since I have posted anything.

Well nothing really new around here in Bostong. It is still cold and it snowed again yesterday.

Last Friday I was dumped via email by the guy tha I was dating. Doesn’t he know the Seinfeld rule? If you get to second base a person at least deserves a phone call, not an email.
It wasn’t like I was really all that into him, but he could have the respect to call me and tell me that he didn’t think that we were compatible. It was hurtful.

But ohwell.

I am traveling back to St. Louis next Thursday for the long weekend.

Brad and I have been talking again. He loves me, I love him. I don’t know what it is about our relationship. One moment it seems like we are the only two people in the world and the next it like he gets cold feet.

I would still walk through fire for him. I thought being 1500 miles away from him that I would get over him, but I still think about him everyday. He thinks about me everyday as well.

We are meant to be together, I guess it’s a matter of right timing.

Who knows?

When will you come back home.

This song has been stuck in my head all day

“When Will You Come Back Home?”

There’s something in the way she eases my mind
And lays me across the bed till I close my eyes
Stirs me in the morning till I can ever be satisfied
I leave Carolina every night in my dreams
Like the girls that try to love me that I only leave
Rock me like a baby doll and hold me to your chest
But I’m always moving too fast

If I could find my way back home, where would I go?
When everything about me, I used to be,
Shivers in the sheets and the blankets of snow
Lost out in the woods were you’re looking for me

When, when will you come back home
No one leave the lights on in a house
Where nobody lives anymore
Loaded like the boxes up in the bedroom
Coming off the hinges like the door
The shadows dancing up in the window
They’re not who we are but who we were
And I’m not gonna break, but if I do
I’m gonna shatter like the glass I turned your heart into
I’m broken like the windos in the house where I used to live
And If I could find my way back home, where would I go?
When everything about me, I used to be,
Shivers in the sheets and the blankets of snow
I’m lost out in the woods looking for you
When, when will you come back home
No one leave the lights on in a house
Where nobody lives anymore
Everything about me you liked is already gone
Everything about me you loved is gone
When, when will you come back home

Fish have feelings

nighthawks:

My office fish, Nina Swimone, is on her last fin. She is resting sideways at the bottom of her tank, and every once in awhile she will flutter spasticly to the top of her bowl, only to float back down. This is very heartbreaking.

Another Snow day

It’s snowing again in Boston. It’s pretty when it is coming down, I just dread having to go out in it later on.

Thank God I switched my days off this week. Now today I can focus on getting my apt cleaned, and spend some time with my dog, (who right now is attacking my slippers)